#Confession 1 Ep. Boughetto?

In my early adolescencent  age I suffered under the label of being too "ghetto".  Talkin' with a certain and thing high socks with chucks and a short khaki cargo mini skirt was quote on quote cute. Yeah those were my middle school days, living in in NMB I guess Dade had this weird affect on me. I was just imitating what I saw around me. To be the class clown while still puting on a bravado of being "hard" and put b***hes in they're place. Oh those were the days alright! Lol. But after moving to Broward after the end of my 7th grade year I began to notice a change. There was less of a need for the iron bravado, hanging at the bus stop like a pack of loiters, and wreaking havoc with teachers. My studies became more important and I started getting A's consistently for the first time in my life. I was always still stayed the class clown though but I was an all around good student socially and academically. But that all went to hell in a hand basket when I got to high school. My high school of course was located in Dade and I socially became conflicted. It was a year since I was "ghetto" and I felt I found a calm within myself and became a mellowy and introverted. Also I suffered from a bad wardrobe at that time because my mother didn't allow me to wear PANTS! But that's another story for another time, lol. So I was tease for my long skirts, ughh (future therapy moment). That's when I realized the ignorance that is associated with ghetto people about perception. The quick in expense fashion fads (plastic shoes, lace fronts, overly ripped jeans, name plates & earrings), colorful language not found in the English dictionary, and thuggish life (boys with no aspirations other than being a rapper). I was never the one to follow trends or anything overly hyped (saturated); that's why I never saw a High School Musical movie (barf!). Well this great epiphany of me becoming too bougie came when my sister told me that I don't speak to people on a common level . Example # 1: I called her boyfriend's proposal idea of proposing on the Eiffel Tower cliche. She had a cow on me and said regular people don't say stuff like that you act like you went to Paris. True, but I heard the scenario from friends who done many times, and though he should have a more heartfelt and something original. Example # 2: I'm looking for a bank account (man). I have high standards and so do most women but financial stability probably falls on top of the list for me right next to ambition, career, and spiritual. So I might say no to every Markeith, Jerome, and Duvante doesn't make me bougie, it makes me selective. But I was hurt when my sister said sometimes what I say is too blunt and I sound like I'm better than people. One I never want to do is belittle someone. I guess sometimes I can give a stand-offish vibe that can be perceived as snobby but that's not the case. I always wanted to be considered down to earth not the B' in the Sky. But I guess I'll work on that, this is just a preview of the more bougie/ghetto things to come.

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